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The Feeling Inside

With music I mean certain songs I just get into this zone and feeling. I don't know how to quite put my finger on it yet to what it is but I can say one thing it feels good. It kind of puts me in another world. Right now I have been stuck on this one song by Adele "Rolling In The Deep". Her voice is marvelous. But the Feeling that comes from this song is exactly what I am talking about. Adele's song I first got the feeling when I seen the movie I am Number Four. Could have been the way the girl blow up the place but still had to tag the song with my shazam app. This goes to show you the power music is, which can move you into another kind of vortex if you say.

Seeing what's within

Starting to really think about the things in life that I come in contact with. Lately I have been in and out of good moods and bad moods trying to figure out why am I so in and out. Why I can't stay in the moods I rather be in all day everyday. Some would say it's silly to think that you can stay in a good mood all the time but I mean really why not. Feels like one day I read something and it really takes me out of alignment from what I was trying to do early that day. So what i figured lets thinking about the time I have experience good times in the last few days without going in and out. Last Thursday my job had an kickball game it felt great to be outside of what was normally the work day of an account firm which is more like a boring waiting for something to happen day. I couldn't really believe you could have so much fun with accounts but we all had allot of it. The experience of it all afterwards was trying to find that experience again and hoping by some way that it could happen again fast. I guess I was dreaming this was my higher definition in life to find something like this that I could do every day. It's fun and thrilling. I know kickball a 30+ year old person playing kickball and loving it. Man oh man. There was a couple weeks ago when I was talking to the big man and thinking about stuff I did when I was a kid and love to do and just enjoy it. I guess he put me in a place were I could go back to that time and just let go. I really wouldn't have changed anything that day even the excitement leading up till the time we got there to play with each other. Out my life I have wished and wished to hit the lotto and grab the feeling of being a trust fund kid of my own or similiar. Really is that truely what i really want. Oh trust me I would love to still be a millionaire, but when certain events in life happen seems like there is something else to see within. Something else to look for. Something else to do with life.